Asexuals on Coming Out: Experiences

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Questo Post è il risultato del progetto  Asexuality Questionnaire project. Il questionario che è stato pensato per garantire l’anonimato nelle risposte   alle domande che fanno parte del progetto.
Il coming out è un importante parte dell’esperienza ace. Molti asessuali considerano il coming out ad un certo punto. Spesso, si confidano con degliamici intimi, altre volte, considereranno di annunciarlo al mondo intero. Alcuni decidono di non fare coming out e aspettano un’altra occasione.
Molte persone sono Out con pochi dei loro amici e solo una parte della famiglia. La frase ” Sono out con le persone che mi interessano” è venuto fuori nelle risposte. Sembra poco comune per una persona asessuale  essere out con tutti quelli che conoscono. La due ragioni più comuni  che portano a non fare coming out ad una persona in particolare è la paura  per come reagiranno e il non considerare importante che determinate persone sappiano. Poche persone hanno visto l’asessualità  come parte integrante della loro identità, ed ha preso posizione con ” Si? e quindi?” , questo è tutto, non la nascondono, ma non sentono la necessità di divulgarlo al mondo, e ne parleranno se mai si troveranno ad affrontare l’argomento.
Quando si trattata della famiglia,molte persone hanno detto che erano out con il la fratello\sorella pittosto  che hai genitori, e molti erano out con i genitori ma non con i nonni. Spesso c’è la volonta di essere out con un solo genitore, ma  non vogliono dirlo ad entrambi. Spesso, i differenti menbri della famiglia potrebbero reagire in maniera differente. Un fratello\sorella potrebbe essere completamente inclusiv*, mentre la madre potrebbe risultare più riluttante. L’imbarazzo di discutere di questioni sulla sessualità ( o la mancanza di essa) con la famiglia e la paura delle reazioni sono alcune delle prime ragioni per la mancanza di coming out in famiglia.
Molte persone che hanno fatto coming out hanno riportato un’esperienza positiva.  esperienze positive o neutrali sembrano superare le esperienze negative. Infatti, molte delle persone che hanno risposto non hanno riportato nessuna reazione che hanno classificato come negativa.
Pochissime persone hanno sottolineato che fare coming out è stata  una decisione personale. Nessuna persona si dovrebbe sentire in obbligo ad essere out. Alla fine, non sono affari di nessun’altro ma solo tuoi, quindi se non vuoi dirlo a nessun’altro, questo è perfettamente giusto.

Le risposte:

Molte reazioni sono positive 

La prima volta che ho fatto coming out, è stata con un gruppo di amici internauti che avevo da lungo tempo, e ho avuto una risposta molto positiva. Dopo di che, l’ho fatto con i miei genitori, che erano abbastanza apposto con la cosa, e poi con i miei amici più aperti, e ora praticamente ogni volta che mi si presenta l’occasione faccio coming out. Molte delle risposte che ho avuto sono state positive”

” Sono stati così incredibilmente aperti e meravigliosi”

” Si, i miei genitori specialmente mi hanno accetat*. Non mi avevano mai fatto pressione prima, quindi la loro reazione è stata per lo più, ” Ecco perché, magnifico.””

” Le persone mi hanno ripetutamente sostenuto ripetendo il fatto che io sono ciò che sono e che è okay.”

” Molt eprsone Hanno accettato ciò come se avessero accettato il fatto delle mie preferenze sul cibo: Per lo più hanno detto qualcosa del tipo “Ah, va bene” o semplicemente continuato la conversazione come se non fosse una cosa fuori dal comune.”

” Mi hanno battuto il cinque! E’ stato abbastanza fantastico.”

” Ho avuto fortuna. Tutti sono stati veramnete fantastici una volta saputo il mio orientamento.”

” Quasi tutte le persone a cui l’ho detto sono state di incredibile supporto e rispettose, e  quelle a cui non importava abbastanza hanno smesso di parlarmi.”

 

 

Alcune non lo sono state.

  • “Mia madre era furiosa. Ho spiegato cos’è la asessualità, ma era convinta che non esistesse” .“C’è solo l’eterosessualità e l’omosessualità!” Ha urlato. Non ho fatto la cosa migliore confessandole di essere bi-romantc. Dopo aver minacciato di picchiarmi, è uscita con foga dalla camera. (Devo specificare che non mi ha colpito, mi ha solo minacciato.) Dopo, quando mio padre è venuto di sopra ad augurarmi la buona notte ho fatto coming out anche con lui. Non gli è importato molto del fatto che fossi bi-romantic. Ma quando gli ho detto di essere asessuale – Non l’ho mai visto cosi deluso. Non era arrabbiato, solo molto triste. Come se lo avessi deluso. Mi ha detto che ero ancora molto giovane, e di non fare ancora queste scelte avventate.  Entrambi fanno finta che non sia successo niente. ” La negazione è dolorosa e una delle cose peggiore”
  • ” Ho fatto coming out solo con mio marito, che lo ha subito considerato come un fallimento delle sue abilità sessuali.”
  • “Il mio unico amico ha cominciato a scherzare dicendo qualcosa sui batteri e mi ha detto che non stavo bene”
  • Ho pregato. Ho avuto un terapista fissato sulla mia asessualità al punto di ignorare qualsiasi altra cosa, sostenendo di accettare me stess* ma di farlo sessione dopo sessione. Ho perso qualcuno  che in quel momento, era il mio migliore amico: E’ scivolato via da me, e questo è stato solo l’inizio. Mi è stato detto, più volte, che io ero “rott*”, danneggiat*, brutt*. Mia mamma una volta, dopo avermi accettato per un periodo lungo, mi ha suggerito di fare un controllo degli ormoni.  Ho avuto dei dottori che l’hanno trattata come un sintomo, o con sospetto. Ho una persona amica che, non importa quante volte lo dica, non sembra mai assorbire le informazioni”
  • “mio cugino mi ha detto cose molto offensive e sono stat* veramente depress*, ho avuto pensieri suicidi per un po. L’ho eliminato dalla mia vita. Se le persone non riescono ad accettarti per ciò che sei veramente, allora non meritano il tuo tempo!”
  • “Ho perso  uno dei miei amici quando ho scoperto che discriminava le persone asessuali su Tumblr per “appropriazione queer”. Eravamo amici prima che ralizassi di essere asessuale e si rese conto che potesse essere qualcosa del genere. Abbiamo entrambi scoperto la comunità separatamente, e a quanto pare abbiamo vauto differenti reazioni.
  • “il mio primo ragazzo ha cercato di “aggiustarmi” con il suo pene magico. Non ho la certezza di quale cosa peggiore possa esserci.

 

 

 

Molte persone hanno “testato le acque” in anticipo, parlando di asessualità con le persone prima di fare coming out con loro.

Non ho fatto coming out con i miei parenti. Ho parlato loro dell’asessualità e la loro reazione non è una delle più promettenti. Penso che mo padre farebbe una delle un sacco di noiose congetture sulla provenienza della mia asessualità, mia madre andrebbe fuori di testa e mi direbbe che ho una malattia e mi consiglierebbe di curarmi per non ” perdermi una parte importante dell’esperienza umana”

Alcune persone sono out perchè  non si sentono a loro agio a nasconderlo.

  •  Ho fatto coming out perchè non volevo tenere nascosta una cosa cosi importante ai miei amici, specialmente quando è direttamente rilevante alla mia identità e alle mie relazioni.
  • Mi piace dire alle persone la verità e non disattendere le loro aspettative dopo un lungo periodo che mi conoscono.
  • Ho fatto coming out con mio fratello per prima perchè lui è il mio migliore amico e non dirlo a lui mi stava divorando, mi sentivo un bugiardo tutte le volte che lo guardavo negli occhi.
  • Ho fatto coming out perchè era qualcosa che volevo vivere alla luce del sole e volevo trovare degli amici con cui parlarne.
  • Ho fatto coming out con un piccolo gruppo di persone (un mix di famigliari e amici) perchè non volevo nascondere una parte di me stess* che considero una parte importante di me, e penso sia importante essere sinceri con le persone che sono vicio a noi.
  • L’ho detto alle altre persone perchè non lo potevo tenere per me molto a lungo. Sentivo come se più a lungo lo tenevo dentro di me come

 

“I told other people because I couldn’t keep it to myself any longer. I felt like the longer I kept it a secret, the more ashamed of it I would become, and I didn’t want to be ashamed of my sexuality.”

Some people are out because they’ve just discovered something about themselves and want to share it.

“When I found out that Asexuality was a thing, I first read everything on AVEN, then raced downstairs to my mom and showed her the site, all ‘mom, mom, I found my people! :D’”

“I’ve come out to a few friends, though not all of them. I did it because I was discovering this new thing in my life and I wanted to share it with someone.”

“I came out because I was excited to find out something new about myself that I’d never realized before, and I wanted to share it with everyone.”

“I was out within hours of discovering asexuality, simply because the closet is not a happy place.”

Others don’t tell people because they don’t feel other people need to know.

“If someone asks, I tell them. Otherwise I see no reason to tell them (unless they wish to engage in a sexual relationship with me).”

“I only come out if it is necessary and would not voluntarily do so to anyone I didn’t know well, as I don’t see how my orientation is most people’s business.”

“Also, it doesn’t really seem necessary for me to bring it up with most people. It wouldn’t really change anything, so why bother?”

“My asexuality is not something I make a big deal out of, and I don’t really feel the need to tell people unless they specifically ask whether I’m ace.”

Quite a few people remarked that others had already guessed that they were asexual.

“The best reactions came from my friends and ranged from “That explains a lot” to “I knew there was something different about you. Nice to know there’s a word for it.” ”

“The times that I’ve talked about it, it was to explain why I’ve been single all my life and plan to remain that way for the foreseeable future. That is, to explain what they’ve already noticed about me and found out of the ordinary.”

“One is my best friend, who is also asexual. That was easy… since she already suspected I was.”

“And my mom’s like “I guessed.””

“Almost all the conversations I’ve had about my asexuality with friends have been supportive. Notably, last year some article online spurred me to tell my housemates, “I don’t know if I’ve ever mentioned it, but I am asexual.” They replied, “Yes, we figured.” That was lovely and reassuring.”

“When I came out to one of my best friends, her initial reaction was “Wait, is this something you just figured out?” Apparently she’s known since 8th grade and I figured it out summer before sophomore year of college. We spent several minutes then with her just saying “How did you not know?!” and me replying “How was I supposed to know?””

“People were probably pegging me as asexual before I even knew the term, or even if they didn’t have a term for it themselves.”

“My best friend simply said “I’m not surprised” and accepted me wholeheartedly.”

Sometimes the person they’re coming out to is asexual as well.

“I told my best friend about it, but that was easy because he is asexual too!”

“As it turns out, she is also asexual, and she came out to me at the same time I came out to her.”

“One of my friends that I came out to actually told me that she is asexual too and now we both have someone that understands us and we can be completely open with.”

“The second person I ever came out to was my partner, and I was so upset by the thought of him dumping me and hating me just because I didn’t want into his pants that I started crying all over his shirt, which is hilarious in hindsight, especially since 15 seconds later he came out as asexual to me (serendipity!).”

And sometimes the other person knows someone who might be asexual.

“During the talk with both my parents we discussed a number of older relatives on both sides of the family who never married. My dad’s brother has never married and in all the time I’ve known him (going on 40 years) I’ve never seen him to have any romantic or sexual relationships. I don’t know if he is asexual or not, it’s not the kind of thing he would ever talk about. But my parents could understand me in the context of other people they knew who were similar.”

Some people expressed fears or doubts about coming out.

“I don’t know if I will ever tell my family as I’m pretty sure they won’t understand and will only hurt me by trying to be understanding.”

“I haven’t really thought about why I’m not out to most people, for the most part I think it’s none of their business, but there might be a slight fear in that as well, fear of not being accepted or that they don’t believe me or think I’m a freak.”

“I worry about what some people think, as I know they will tell me that it’s just a phase I’m going through.”

“I get more disbelief and confusion. I worry about being seen as attention seeking, especially with my own regular confusion about my own sexuality.”

“I’m not out to family yet though. I just don’t know how they will react, and I want to wait untill I have somewhere else I can go if they react poorly.”

Sometimes people are skeptical.

“One friend tried to convince me that I was simply straight and haven’t found the right guy.”

“Most people disbelived me and even asked numerous questions to try and find the reason behing my unwillingness to fuck. A lot of them sugested therapy and treated me as a labrat that is now open to scrutiny and can be used to prove or refute their own personal theories.”

“He preached to me for a good five minutes about how I couldn’t be sure I was asexual because I hadn’t had sex. And, he explained, he hadn’t enjoyed sex the first time either, so if I didn’t then I should try it again just in case. He’s flat out told me that I will have sex eventually, and that I was never a teenager because being a teenager is defined by having sex.”

“When I first came out to my mother, she dismissed it as me choosing to be celibate for we are Catholic.”

“My parents didn’t really understand what I was saying at all, and probably still don’t. My dad still thinks I’m gay but repressed, whereas my mum still wants grandchildren that I have no intention of giving.”

“I have come out to two people: my mom and my therapist. Both times were less than ideal. They didn’t really get it/ don’t seem to fully believe it. I haven’t come out to others because I am afraid they will not believe me.”

“One of my friends told me that I can’t be asexual because all adults want to have sex and I was just being immature and trying to sound like a special snow flake. I also tried to tell my parents but they told me I was too young to know what I am.”

Being out makes a difference in how other people feel about asexuality.

“But the more time passes and the more quietly and resolutely I stick to what I have said all along, the more acceptance I gain. My family are usually the first to fall in line.”

“The second person I told said that if I had just told him *about* asexuality without saying *I* was asexual, he would have been skeptical about its existence.”

“She insisted at first that I was just making stuff up to avoid social contact, but she’s come around since then and is now a great ally.”

“I got a lot of the “we’re worried you’ll be lonely” and “maybe you should try it” stuff from my parents, but once I’d explained that it was an orientation, they completely took me seriously and accepted me.”

“My parents’ response also wasn’t too bad, but it was still a long, five year process to get them to the point where we’re all really comfortable with their knowledge level. Now they’re proud, running around their rural community educating people on asexuality and all sorts of stuff.”

One person cited the “Just One Person” theory, where it only takes one out and visible person to make a difference in someone’s life.

“But more important than that, I want young aces to know they’re not alone. I felt so isolated through much of my adolescence, and I think that if I had known of one other ace, I wouldn’t have felt as confused and alone as I did. So I want to be that one other ace for young people.”

Occasionally, coming out can be very cathartic.

“It was extremely liberating. I felt ecstatic for days.”

“All around it was a really great experience. I cried from happiness because it felt like a weight had lifted off my chest.”

One person says they came out because their friends were playing matchmaker.

“I came out to my friends because they kept trying to set me up on dates with people and it was getting annoying.”

Sometimes aces come out non-chalantly.

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“I have come out to a few people I only know online. But not in any grand statement, just a passing comment that fit the topic.”

“It has always been incidental to a conversation, rather than something I set out to do.”

“I’m out to my mother and all my close friends. Some various people from my high school knew, and so do some various people at Uni. I never had a huge “coming out” so to speak.”

Others will write a letter.

“I sent her an email with a link to AVEN and she overall took it really well.”

“I did it through letters, so I didn’t have to say anything.”

Or a text message.

“On the day I had decided was my coming out day I texted my mother from the light rail station with, “So I’m a homoromatic asexual. I’ll still prolly identify as a lesbian in most situations however, because my sex life is not that many people’s business.” She responded with, “Okay. You know I love and support you. :)” ”

Sometimes they’ll use various forms of social media to broadcast it.

“Yes, I’ve come out individually and en-masse via youtube.”

“I came out on my Tumblr blog first, because I have very good and open-minded friends there. I then came out on Facebook to all of my friends and family and got mostly positive responses.”

“I made a limited visibility post about it on Facebook. The response was underwhelming, but at least there was nothing negative. I got one supportive comment from my mom and one like from a friend.”

“I made a post about asexuality, in which I mentioned at the end that I was aro/ace, and I linked to it on Facebook, and so it’s entirely possible that many people I haven’t come out to know. That was kind of scary, and I’m not sure I would have done it again, but there were a lot of useless news stories about asexuality coming out, and one of my college friends came out to our group as aromantic and clearly had only just heard of it, and I wanted to do my part to increase awareness.”

And a couple of people were drunk when it happened.

“I told some others when we were discussing relationships, boys, who was attractive at the party, etc. while drunk.”

“I came out once – to three of my closest friends. We were at a party and VERY drunk. My three friends were talking about sex, my drunk mind decided now was a good time to tell them that I was asexual, so I did. They slurred “we love ya”, hugged me and continued talking about sex.”

One person came out in two languages while having ice cream in a foreign country.

“I think my ultimate positive coming out experience was when I was in Japan, and I went to lunch with an American friend, a couple of Dutch friends, and their Japanese friends (who spoke limited English), and, due to a series of slightly hilarious circumstances involving Sherlock, I wound up outing myself first in English and then in Japanese (because the Japanese girls wanted to know why the conversation on our end of the table had suddenly gotten so intense). Not only was it an incredibly validating experience for me in terms of language proficiency (I think that once you are able to explain human sexuality in a foreign language, you are probably getting close to fluency), everyone was very supportive and took it well. And that was how I wound up explaining human sexuality in two languages over parfaits.”

And finally, one person even used my book to come out. (Available on Amazon and Kindle!)

“My parents know. I sent them an email with a link to your book one night. The next morning, when I woke up, my mom took me out to breakfast and talked about it with me. Both of my parents were very supportive.”

 

(Also take a look at the companion post about advice for coming out.)

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